What Do You See?

What is it that you really want for your life right now? I can tell you that there were three things that my soul cried out for after having two abortions; FORGIVENESS-FREEDOM-HEALING!

I knew I wanted those things. I knew I needed those things. How to get there though, kept me a bit stuck. It was when my desperation for those things out weighed the fear, that I began to receive all that I needed.

The desperation that I'm referring to, some how lead me to the place where I could only envision one solution. You see, for me, I knew there weren't many choices. I had tried to forget it. I had tried to numb it with substance. I had tried EVERYTHING, and nothing helped! I knew I needed forgiveness & healing, and that without it, I would surely die. I could see that Jesus was my only option. Desperation helped lead me to vision.

The subject of vision has long been talked about, and an important subject it is. My thoughts on the subject were broadened just this last Sunday, when my Pastor, Bishop Gabe, spoke a message about it. I long ago discovered the importance of having a vision, and even more importantly, of writing that vision down, so that I, along with those around me, could run towards accomplishing it. In fact the bible even speaks about it in Habakuk 2:2-3:

"And the Lord answered me, and said, write the vision,
and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.

For the vision is yet for an appointed time,

but at the end it shall speak, and not lie:

though it tarry, wait for it, because it will surely come,

it will not tarry."

Habakkuk 2:2-3

However, I always related this verse to that of writing the foundation for goals and aspirations for the big things that God would through you, accomplish in the future. I had never before related vision to the process one must have in order to walk out a life of wholeness and healing. It only makes sense though!

I suddenly referred back to that time in my life, and then quickly thought of you all.

So, today I ask you: How bad do you want that forgiveness and healing? Remember, desperation can be a factor that actually leads you to vision.


The meaning of desperation is:

a state in which all hope is lost or absent.

It's often when all hope has disappeared that you begin to see (envision) the only possibility there is to changing. Kind of weird, I know.

The definition of the vision that I'm writing about is:
the act or power of anticipating that which will or may come to be.

My Pastor used a wonderful comparative when speaking about this: When you decide to build a home, the first thing you do is seek out an architect, and begin to put those plans on paper. You determine what it is going to cost, and/or what it will require. You see it on paper, and you can some how begin to see the finished product in your mind.

Because healing and wholeness from abortion does cost and require something, many continue in the state of longing (or excuses) because it seems easier than having to deal with it all. But the question again is: Do you really want to be healed from your abortion(s)? Do you really want to be free? Your miracle can come when you have the clarity to actually see it; THIS IS VISION.

If you have been unable to see the hope of a future, please know that allowing God into your heart is how your vision can be restored. It's when the junk moves out of the way, that you can once again begin to see clearly. When you see clearly again, you realize that you can help change your future by your willingness to change your now.

You have got to have a vision of wholeness for yourself so that you don't get stuck on how to obtain it, but rather you can run toward the vision to obtain it! You must have a vision of things greater than your current reality. If you cannot see it, you can not seize it.

Here are 4 questions to ask yourself:

1. What do you want?

2. How will you achieve or acquire it?

3. What will it cost?

4. What does it look like in the end?

I would like to refer you back to two of my previous posts (2008), that I feel might be helpful:

"Will You Let Him?" will assist you in identifying what you've been dealing with.

"Now What?", provides you with applicable steps to help you get started in your healing.

I also encourage you all to listen to my Pastor's message in its entirety. It's a rich word and one that can be applied to many areas in your life. It will be well worth your time! The message is entitled "Bringing It All In Line In 2009", and can be found on his home page.

Begin to envision your miracle today!

I wish to clarify that this particular post was written out of a desire to help everyone understand how important it is to be able to see a restored future for yourself. I can not emphasize enough however, that Jesus is the only solution to that restored future. Your ability to see it is an important factor, but ultimately, it is God himself that will give you the forgiveness that you need, the love that you long for, and the healing that leads to a restored life. --Bonnie